Today I feel like I've been standing on the running board of an old car while it is going down a bumpy road at full speed, around curves and over small rolling hills.  At least, hanging on has required my attention and kept it away from my gloomy situation predicitons.  I just hope I can stay on through the weekend as I don't forsee being able to slow it down.  
    What am I doing with my retirement freedom?  Sorting out possessions and emotions, writing, putting off things I need to do and have no excuses for not doing, running my granddaughter to her activities, reading, enjoying some weekends and longer vacations with family, comiserating and laughing with friends, worrying about finding different residence, worrying about not finding a different residence, volunteering, co-parenting my granddaughter, learning about having websites and blogs, bracing myself for Halloween, complete with granddaughter's stress over her costume.  
    I've spent time a couple days this week being in my old work environment in a new capacity, being a volunteer myself instead of the coordinator.  It's nice to relax with them, not having to arrange details, buit it requires holding back too.  It's someone else's show now.  
    I've been venturing into different groups, getting to know different people while trying not to encroach into my writing time.  This is my renewed calling.  I've been given plenty of experiences and, I think, insights to share to keep me working for as long as I'm allowed to keep breathing.  And now I need some sleep to stay balanced and not fall off in the ditch.